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Friday, July 3, 2009

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

Inspired by the Older Sister, Star
all the credit goes to her *

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

As the blood drips down the sink
And my brain slowly ceases to think
As I lay my head on the bathroom floor
Two tears drip down my face with the promise of more
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
That death came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said that it was time,
And that I'd have to leave all those I love behind.
As we walked slowly down the long, dark hall,
Memories of loved ones flooded my head,
However big or small.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Tell my family,
Tell them I wish them well in whatever they choose to do,
That I have so much love for my brother and sisters,
And I know how much they love me too.
Most Importantly,
Make sure to tell My Tiffany –
Tell her please don't cry,
That I love her,
And I'm sorry that I couldn't say goodbye
Tell her; please tell her to be strong
And that she was definitely the main reason
Why I stayed alive so long.
Please Please PLEASE--
if you dont do anything else- you GOTTA
Tell Megaan not to ever forget me
And that it will be okay
And at my funeral, please tell her,
I'm so sorry we had to finally meet this way.
Tell Marcus—Oh please tell Marcus,
How much I loved him so,
How big of a part he played in my life,
Somebody's gotta let him know.
Tell KaRon that his guidance was not in vain,
I just could not resist the call,
When the knife called my name.
Tell all my Mo City Veterans,
That I will miss them most of all,
Keep them heads up, Be strong for me.
Stand Tall.
You guys have so much potential—if only you could see.
What I see.
Tell all my Richmond/Rosenberg friends,
Both Old and New,
I'll forever cherish the memories we made,
It's crazy how fast time flew.
As Death and I reach the elevator door, and Death
Pushes the button to go down,
My sad face quickly carved a deeper frown.
"Why cannot I go up above,
Meet my Savior Jesus,
And join all those I dearly love?
I haven't even accomplished all my dreams,
I haven't even gone to Disneyworld,
As silly as it seems."
I tried to say all this but I couldn't find my voice,
"I didn't want death! Especially not Hell! I want to go back! Please!"
But I knew that I had already made my choice.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
When sun will rise— and find those eyes—
In Houston, VA, Chicago, London, Norway, Africa, VA
-- all filled with tears for me
I wish so much yall wouldn't cry
Because I know how much yall love me,
As much I love you.
And each time that you think of me,
I know you'll miss me too.
All too soon, the elevator rang that inevitable "ding!"
As I stepped into the elevator, I glanced behind me,
Regretting Everything.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don't think we're far apart.
For, everytime you think of me—
I'm right here in your heart.


  1. preachhhhhh !

    dawg thats an honor, the comment you gave me.
    but this was madd dope (:
    dont die, i love you !