Yes, I'll have some videos, and pictures, & some new shit I like every now & then . But Sorry Kiddos - this blog wont be about "what's hot, or new, or instyle" . It wont be center on celebrities & new shit coming out, because honestly I could give less of a fuck . This blog will be centered around my thoughts, my poems, my wishes, my dreams, and my escapes .

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Rest in Peace DJ AM

he was Nicole Richie's ex .

and a well know DJ for parties in Hollywoood ,

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Drake feat. Kanye West, Lil Wayne, Eminem - Forever

Mmm . So much talent .
they are calling this 2009's "swagger like us"
Im loving this jam ;
Eminem KILLS it .
Drake & Ye did good .
Lil Wayne . . . ? Psh .

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Though we've come , to the end of the road ; Still I can't let go . .

Enny .

Your funeral was today .

It was hard . really hard .

When I walked in the church ,

Your casket was open ,

& As I looked down to see you just once more ,

The tears ran out like a water through a hose .

Saying Goodbye was the hardest part .

You were just laying there , Gray & Stiff

Not joking around . No lanky walk .

I saw Kendrick ; it was good seeing him .

It reminded me of all the good times us 4 had together .

Typing this is hard , Eno .

It hurts, its hurt then, & it hurts now .

My soul is crying . . It's not fair .

Your family kept strong . . .

Im praying for them .

Your sister shared some bible verses .

& 3 friends got up & shared memories with you .

We all are so saddened by this, so shocked .

We miss you. It hurts .

We love you, so much .

We'll see you one day

Thursday, August 20, 2009

R.I.P. Enyinaya Nwankwo .

My heart stopped at 12.15 am last night
My friend Olivia told me that our friend ,
Enny got shot that morning walking back home .

Yall know him as ENO the great or MR.WAVES ,
I just know him as Enny, the dimple in my smile .

My Enny.?
Not Mine .
It must be a mistake .
You have the wrong guy!
Not the one who went to Taylor , & Elsik .
Not the one who was about to go to college .
Not the one i would stay on the phone with
from 9pm - 8am , talking about the silliest things .
Not the one I met summer o6, at church camp .
Not the one, that constantly had me laughing .
Not the one, I played basketball against all the time .
Not the one, I kissed under fireworks .
Not the one, who would hug me so tight
that I could barely even breathe .
Not the one, I laughed with in the lake .
No, Not the one I danced with under the stars
The one, who I snuck out with .?
It cant be the one who I cried with in chapel .
It cant be the one whose hands I held walking
down the street .
Please, Not Him .


But It was him .
I dont understand .
I was just talking to E ,
a couple weeks ago . .

He was healthy, alive,
happy, goofy as ever . .

Now he's gone .

The memories ,
they suffocate me .

Do you rememeber when
we went to that barbequee together
and we chopped on everybody there
while eating our ribs ?

and we sat there
from 11am - 4am in the morning
talking about life, love, etc . .

I BET you dont remember when
me & olivia snuck into the boy's cabin
( even though we could got kicked out for it )
and we danced with you, and Kendrick for 30 seconds
before we rann out , laughing so hard . . .

Do you rememeber when,
I snuck out my cabin at 2am
and we laid on the bench togher,
cracking each other up . .

Eno , I miss you so much . I need you here, with me . Being that damn good friend you always were . No matter how I felt, I always knew I could count on you . . to make me smile . To make me forget . . It's not fair . . You were such a good person, Why did you have to get taken away from me, and everybody else who loves you much ? I dont understand , maybe i'll never understand , i'll keep your memory alive Enny . . I love ya "CRACKHEADZ" hahahaahaha . .

Im crying,
Im laughing .

I know he's in a better place .
I just wish I could hear that corny-ass laugh one more time .
I wish I could hug him one more time .
I wish I could look in his eyes , ONE MORE TIME .

Never take Life for granted ..

Gone too soon ,


I Love You , E .

I'll see ya at the crossroads .

Friday, August 14, 2009

Drama , Lies , & Tears ; Fuck These Teenage Years .

Love is not patient
& Love is not kind

It brings false hope
& leaves you blind

Love hurts the mind ,
and kills the soul . .

It fills you up ,
then leaves a hole .

You were my happy ending
You were my sweet regret

The blow of your fist
My body's a wreck

I can still feel your
hands wrapped around
my neck

Tears, rolling down
the same old cheeks

This game is getting old
I move my feet

You say don't stay
You say don't go

I look in the eyes of a man
that I hardly know

I yearn for compassion
You dont understand

I walk to the door
You grab my hand

Your lies mesmerize me
Your kiss fools my brain

I try to escape your touch
Your lips whisper my name

You lead me to the bed,
a place we both know well

Your magic seems to hold me
Am I under your spell.?

I wake up ,
all alone .

I call ,

You dont pick up
the phone .

Tears stain the sheets.
This game is so hard to beat.

I run to the door,
cant take it anymore .

There's nothing
you could do or say

You're going to break
my heart anyway

so please, just
leave the pieces
when you go . .


So , Micheal Vick is offically an EAGLE .
and white people are pissssssssssssssseddd !
the way they acting, you would think he shot the president ,
dammmmn , they giving this boy no slack !
I'm not saying what he did was right ,
but get over it ! Dannnngg .

Anyways , I dont think it's fair
that Mike's going to Philly . .
They already got McNabb & Westbrook !

He should signed with the Texans .
Imagine him & ANDRE JOHNSON . .
wooooowwww ; that's a team right there .

But Texans dont like convicts & shit .
Oh well. they loss.
Eagles gun be so beast this year .

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

The clippers strike once again ;

This time , On Keyshia Cole . .

I kinda like it ?. .
It's something about it . .

that girl , who's so in love , that she'll turn her body over , for your superfical touch .

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Hotel Rooms & Popeyes Chicken .

Hello, Bloggers .
I am reporting from Virginia .
As you could probably guess ,
Im with Corey . . .
Corey, the love of my life, right?
Wrong . Everything feels different .
Looks different . Tastes different . .
Im not happy . . Im just not . .
It was supposed to excitement , and fun .
It was supposed to be making memories .
Instead it's a cold, dark hotel room,
where Im alone and not alone at the same time,
eating nasty cereal & popeyes chicken every day,
it's agruments every single night,
being in bed by 11pm,
waking up & doing the same damn thing . .
I dont know how I feel anymore ,
I dont know how he feels anymore ,
He doesn't even tell me he loves me anymore,
maybe because he doesnt,
or maybe because ,
he never did .
I never thought I'd say this but :
I think,
this is the b e g i n n i n g to the e n d
of KC Tiko & Corey Harper .

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Tiffany Alisha Owens (*)

Best Friends, 10 years strong + counting ,

This person doesnt have a blogspot . .
and since she doesn't get on the internet much anymore . .
I doubt she'll ever see it . .
but this blog isn't for her , this blog is for me . .
to be able to freely express my thanks . .

4th grade ; 1999 -

Living in Mo City, and life was great .

Me & Mary ( my "best" friend at that time )
used to beat her ass, afterschool .
Fucking nerd, with your braces
and coke bottle bi - focals .

I remember Vondrick ( your step - dad )
used to come outside & yell at us
"Stop hitting on Tiffany!"

And we would laugh,
and laugh . .

But then Mary moved .
And somehow, I talked to you one day .
& we became close as fuck .

I made you trade those bi focals for
some contacts

We did everything together ,
& since you lived right up the street from me,
I was ALWAYS at your house,
You were ALWAYS at mines .

We created an unbreakable bond .
The crazy thing about me & Tiffany ,
is we never argue . Not once .
Whenever we are together ,
We just have a good time . .
Laughs, Laughs, and More laughs .

We could be nothing,
and have the funnest time doing it .

So many inside jokes ,

So many memories . .

I'd take me a million years to tell them all .

I remember in the 5th grade,
when you cried to 3LW's "No More"
because Fred & you broke up,
and I sat next to you in that garage,
and cried with you . . .

I remember in the 6th grade,
when we jumped that mexican boy
and ran from the cops together . .
and hid at the elementary school ,
sitting there , out of breath,
laughing and worried at the same time .

That was the beginning of an epedemic .
I was trouble by myself,
and so were you .
and together ,
we were fukcing choas .

I remember out parents didnt want us to be friends,
they tried to seperate us so bad,
PLEASE . wtf they thought .?

Thats like seprating
peanut butter & jelly
cow & chicken
Ed, Ed, & Eddy

Man, what you know about us
skipping school in the 8th grade,
and even though I warned your ass about
that daytime curfew shit ,
you still wanted to go outside ,
and walk around the neighborhood,
for no reason .
& that cop stopped us,
and gave us tickets for DAYTIME CURFEW
and we sat in that back of police car
and he brung us to the principal
in front of EVERYONE at lunch
in handcuffs . .
Muahahaha . .

Separating us.? PLEASE
We were a team, unstoppable .
Until ,
I moved .

Sophmore Year .
That shit was hard .
I was Leaving Mo City for Richmond .
and my best friend wouldnt be with me.?
What the fuck , was I supposed to do.?

We still kept it madd close tho .
Distance never did shit to us .

We was still chilling,
whenever we could .
Still acting an ass .

Maybe you dont remember
in the 6th grade,
prank calling Nathan
on my house phone
and you said :
This is Janay
and he said WHO?
and you said,
"Did I stutter?"
Now , I say that shit all the time .
Hahahahaahah .

but I know you gotta remember
the very beginning of summer o9,
when you came to my house,
and we went somewhere,
we had 7 MD 20/20's
and you got drunk as fuck,
and threw up alll overrr my lawn .
And then you fell alseep on my toliet?
Hahahahahaha . .

Damn, have you ever met anyone,
that you knoww would be always there for you .
No matter , what the situation .

This blog has gone on,
wayy too long .
But I cant stop my fingers from typing .

Whenever I mention my childhood,
Mo City, the "good days",
how can I not think about Tiffany.?

Tiffany, has been there for me ,
when I wasnt even there for myself .

She's took the rap for me plently times,
She's always had my back .

I have many " besties " ,
but I only truely have one best friend .

I always say best friends are never forever,
and even if we arent .

The memory of you ,
and everything you did for me,
and what you made outta me .
will always, always, always
be with me , for the rest of my days .

I can promise you that ,

I can PROMISE you that .

Saturday, August 1, 2009

my friends are so got damn lucky .

so the Kid Cudi, Asher Roth,
Pac Div, and B.O.B concert
was last night .

I heard Cudi was
reall messed up
and was saying
a buncha things
on the mic
that didnt make
sense !

anyways , so . . .

asher and cudi came outisde
after the concert

my friends caught up with them
and took pics with them :

lucky motherfkers.
and i woulda bin one of them ,
If I had actually went to the concert .
They told me that
Cudi & Roth were out there
with them for like 45 minutes
talking and laughing about
life, the concert, G- shocks, etc .
Ahhh, I hate my friends :(
They dont even LIKE
Kid Cudi & Asher Roth .
Okay thats not truee .
They , do .
but not nearly
as much as meeee .

Oh well .

Until Next Blog, Fam .