what a fucking sap .

Many people's opinion of me will change after this blog .

I'm supposed to be a playa,

but the pimp in me has offically died .

Dare I say the word , Love ?

Those of you close to me , will call me crazy

I'm sure of it .

I can't blame you .

I dont expect you people out there to understand,

I dont even understand .

But you guys weren't there ,

on those long days and hot nights . .

You didnt see his smile .

You didnt kiss his lips .

You didn't hear his laugh .

You didnt fall into his arms .

You didn't spend all day at the beach with him .

You didn't get drunk with him in a AMC theater .

You didn't laugh with him until your stomach pained .

YOU WERENT THERE .

So, how could you POSSIBLY understand ?

Anyways, I havent talked to Corey in a week . .

because he's out to sea, and he gets no service in the Atlantic ocean

or where ever the hell them Navy boats are . .

I wont be able to hear his voice until Aug 3rd :(

So I wrote him an email . .

BEWARE : CAKING TO THE EXTREME

Corey ,

It's been a week since I've talked to you and even though that seems like such a small time, it's been so hard for me . . You're the one, Corey . The one for me . The only one for me . Your perfect , perfect to me , simply means that you are perfect for me . I dont know what I would have done if I never met you . . My whole life, I have been feeling empty, and feeling non-signifcant, and feeling incomplete . . You make me feel so beautiful , so perfect . . . so right . . Im so lucky to have you , so lucky . . . I have so much faith in you, I know you would never do anything to hurt me . . You make me feel so safe, so secure . . Your nothing I want, and everything I need . . I thank God for you every day . . You are truly a blessing from him . .Your constantly on my mind . . when I take a shower, when Im shopping, even when Im sleeping . . I just love you so much, Corey . . i want to spend the rest of my life with you , i want to marry you on a beach, i want to have all 6 of your big head kids, i want to get a house with you with a dog in the back and a picket fence in the front, i want to be mrs. corey dontay harper. . i have never felt like this about anyone, and it both scares and excites me . . . Your the only one who understands me, the only one who knows me, the only one I can depend on . I dont care what my friends think, i dont care about what my family thinks, all i need is you in my life . . I can't wait to see you . . I'm counting down the days . . I miss you more than words can say . I hope, you never ever leave me , because I can't go back . . I know the feeling of complete happiness and I'll be damned if this feeling goes away . . Im scared that one day, you'll find some girl in Virginia who's finer than me , and she'll take your love away . . . Shit, I know we agrue, and i can act like a real spolied bitch sometimes, but I want you to know that you are the best thing to ever happen to me , and No . . it's not going to be easy , it's going to be really hard, but Im okay with that , because I want you, all of you , and me, every single day , for the rest of our lives . .

Talk to you soon .

I love you ,

KC.


:)

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Someday , someone will walk in your life ,
and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else .

Why, Rihanna?

I love me some Rihanna ,

but this is not what sup . .

I swear all these "It" girls in Hollywood,

walking around lookinq a hot damn mess . .

It's not even about beinq different anymore ,

It's about who can out-do who,

this shit is getting ridiculous .

COLLEGE BOUND !

I will be going to SFASU in the fall .
August 31st, 2009 to be exact !
I move into my dorm August 27th .
my major : Mass Communications with
a concentration in Media Studies
my minor : Creative Writing

I'm going to try to be involved with
the performing arts/theater , also .

I love acting, and Im really good at it, too .
Maybe because it's effortless for me,
to forget who i am,
and completely change into someone else .

I don't know who my roommate is going to be, yet
Im kind of scared . What if she's a weird ass white girl
who never goes out, or has any kind of fun?
What if she's completely oppsite of me?
What if she's a neat freak?
Ughhhhhhhh .
I hope she's cool, and funny, and pretty,
and from Houston .
Haha :P
This is where I will be dorming :



I'm so ready ,
btu I'm hella nervous too .
I'm going to be completely by myself .
No mother to get on me about waking up and
getting to school
or about teachers/principals calling them .

Oh shit !

I never really was any good in High school
I was constantly in the principal's office
and my attention span is that of a 5 year old

but I'm really excited to start college
Everyone tells me that college is the best time of your life

I just hope it's worth all the money !

But Education's always a good investment .

WISH ME LUCK :)

Day Two.

Day Two is alot worse than day one , ALOT WORSE . Imagine that . I don't really wanna blog about it . Because that would just bring pain to me . I will just try to forget all about it . I just want to put it behind me . Im already over it . Fuck you , fuck him , fuck her , fuck all yall , because yall all un-real . I fucking swear . My mind frame has forever changed after tonight . Im about to put alot more reserved, closed-in . . Im going to stop going out , doing all this extra shit . I will be home, alot more now . Im starting college in a little over a month and I dont need this . Fuck the world & all the fake ass motherfuckers who reside in it . . . Im too through . and that ends DAY TWO, ONLY 24 MORE TO GO